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joy #thankful

WARNING: THIS POST IS ABOUT EXPERIENCE AND FEELINGS CONTINUE AT YOUR OWN RISK

I awoke this morning filled afresh with joy and hope! Thanks be to God!

This just popped up on my phone:

Isaiah 43:4 ESV

Because you are precious in my eyes, and honored, and I love you,
I give men in return for you,
peoples in exchange for your life.

I was pleasantly surprised by an email from an old friend. It was a joy to hear from him! As I wrote to him, I realized how very full of joy I was.  Here is an excerpt of my answer to him…

“this trip has been amazing. God has shown up in pretty amazing ways (as you blog followers have read about). He continually shows up in unexpected and unimmaginable ways.

I just thanked him that as I begin year 57 I feel the closest to him, maybe ever, love Anna more than ever, could not be prouder of our family (especially III & Lee), I feel healthier than I have in 15 months (and THAT is huge) and I get to serve Him daily.

I am blessed way better than I deserve and growing in my gratitude to Him.”

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Transition #thankful !

Today I leave the cell.

For the last 11 days I have practiced a higher degree of solitude and silence than I ever have.  I have had limited social contact with some select friends here, and an almost daily conversation with my sweet Anna.
I have, as one of the goals of this Sabbath rest (as I’ve dubbed it) been very limited in screen interaction, very little e-mail, NO Facebook (didn’t miss it, so zero sacrifice there), Twitter was source of news and helpful articles. For the month before the Sabbath Rest began, I  unsubscribed and unfollowed a ton of stuff to limit distraction. That trimming of distraction will be left in place.

I had a health goal as well and I’ve walked 16 measured miles and probably another 10+ miles on many prayer walks. The prayer walks have taught me about longer deeper praying than ever before. Last Wednesday I prayer walked/rode from one end of Buda to the other. God works in our hearts when we focus on talking to Him. The result of the combination of ample rest, daily excerise and being 5+ weeks into an 8 week medication regimen, thankfully, is that I have been tick disease symptom free for six weeks and I feel consistently stronger than I have in 16 months. Thanks be to God.

In addition to normal morning reading I’ve been working through a book using writers from the past. I’ve been challenged by Luther, Pascal, Kierkegaard, Calvin and others in my spiritual discipline. I have, thankfully, been reminded of what a wretched man I am and, thanks to Paul in Romans, this body of death has been rescued by Jesus Christ our Lord. Indeed, thanks be to God!

I’ve gotten a couple of chapters written in my novel and made some progress in Brothers K. I read a brand new novel by my friend Luke Davis. God gave me _Litany of Secrets_ at the right moment… since it was a page-turner it got me in the reading groove (get in on Amazon) which was important. After a couple of go go weeks, Luke’s novel made me sit still. Maybe you need to sit still?

So, I’ve left the cell and am on my way to Lake Balaton for 3 1/2 days . I’m giving some devotional talks to DelPest church summer camp. My topic, appropriately enough, is “distraction.”

So, from the city, I’m off to the lake. A bit more sun and exercise. More study, prayer and to give a nightly talk after supper.

#thankful

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summation so far

“Christ says. ‘Give me all. I don’t want so much of your time, money, and work. I want YOU.'”
– C. S. Lewis

This is from Mere Christianity. In it is a plain language summation of what I am learning in this brief time of Sabbath rest. This morning the light came back on.

Through lots of prayer, not as much reading as I thought, lots of quiet and silence (the studio/one room flat I’m in has not become a hermitage or a prison, it is, nonetheless a cell, perfect for this moment in time), I have come back to the simple fact that my calling is to obey the greatest commandment: “to love God with heart, soul, mind and strength” To listen to His voice, and to hear and view ALL others by His.

It took some dedicated rest, excercise, study, solitude and lots of prayer to return to the fact that if I hold fast to Jesus (as Hebrews warns) I will not “drift away.” AND that THIS is my calling: to hold fast.

I am reminded that when I put my eyes on plans and my future and try to figure out the next thing (Matt. 6.25 ff) that my sinful nature (Rom. 7) gently, ever so gently moves me from the target (which is clinging to the daily, hourly and moment by moment mercy and grace of Jesus), when this gentile movement off target happens, peace disappates… so slowly that you won’t realize it until full blown anxiety has kicked in.

Indeed with Jesus work and promise as my foundation…
I look not with regret at the past, nor look with fear in the now, but forward with my trust in God.

[a “draft”, posted using one finger and no spell check, which is to be updated when next online with a computer]

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sarcasm

I just saw this and thought it significant enough to add to the blog…

“Sarcastic put-down humor is ultimately a new form of self-righteousness and self-justification. Gospel love destroys this type of humor.”

– Tim Keller via @timkellernyc 

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Man of Steel

During a time of renewal and sabbath, according to Dan Alander, one should be sure to engage in that which brings delight.

God created us and delights in us and we should delight in Him and this life He has given us.

Today I focused 2/3 my Saturday on delight: a lunch with Anna (we were texting and then talking on the phone) and then a long 2 hour hike through a nature preserve and then a nap. When my 40 winks were over, I decided to go see what was at the movies. I wound up seeing ‘Man of Steel’.

What a cast. Simply amazing. Don’t know the actor who played Superman but how could he fail with the incredible cast he was surrounded by. No doubt, Russel Crowe was excellent.

Some have said this was as dark as the dark re-begining of the Batman saga, but I disagree. This story was about sacrifice for the sake of others and deciding to risks one’s well being for others behalf. Both fathers (Crowe and Kevin Costner) demonstrated this, showing that modeling produces results in one’s young (note: good or bad).

I found the backstory of the end of Krypton and the battle for survival a compelling theme. A couple of other notes for me were that of the score and the 3D. I found the score to be powerful without being overpowering (I kept thinking of Gladiator). The 3D effects were kept under control. The stuff you thought were coming right at you was kept to a minimum and I’m thankful.

OH! and the showing I went to was the original, no dubbing (obviously) and NO subtitles! I was really surprised by this when I finally niticed about 15 minutes into the movie.

Good triumphed, the aliens were sent away (to return in a future instalment?) and the dialogue was enough to keep me thinking without being too clever.

Loved it. Really glad I saw it on the big screen. Would see it again!

It added to my delight.

I sure am glad I don’t depend on reviewers.

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keep your guard up

On Monday afternoon I was on my way from Hungary to Croatia for the next leg of this trip. My first meeting was with a leader in orphan justice on the coast on Tuesday.

We had been in route for 4 hours. We were late and should have been at the border by now but were an hour or so away still. The train was crowded as there are literally thousands of young people traveling in Europe right now and this train takes people from Budapest to Lake Balaton and toward the Croatian coast. I was headed to Zagreb and my phone rang.

“Is this Tom Foley? I have found your wallet and passport!”

I heard the words, but they didn’t register. I asked her to text me the information because it was hard to hear on the train. It had not sunk in yet.

I had done something I had never done before, my wallet (including passport) was in my backpack. I began searching my bag, I searched it again and again. Finally, it sunk in. I had been robbed back at the train station and I didn’t even know it!

This would begin several hours where, over and over, I was reminded of the kindness of God in His protection and provision. I enlisted the help of a Hungarian with whom I had been speaking in the compartment on the trip. The text message came in and I called the number and asked him to get details from the caller.

See, this man “happened to be” going to Croatia to pick up a car and drive it back to Budapest that night and we “happened to have” struck up a conversation along the way because I “happened to” sit in the compartment that he had a reservation in.

We learned from the lady that a retired man in Bp periodically picked up trash in his neighborhood and “just happened” to be cleaning the street on which the thief “just happened” to miss the trash can when discarding my wallet after taking the cash. Had that thief’s aim been better and the wallet have gone IN the trash, it is highly probable that none of this story could be told). The kind man who found my wallet had his daughter call me (she used my business card to find my mobile number).

So, with all this information, my seatmate told me I must get off the train at the next stop to try to get back to Budapest tonight. He then offered to pick me up if there were no trains (it was now well past 6). He gave me all the cash he had and an Costa Rican student gave me his Forints (he would not be back to Hungary). With this information and offer of help, I got off the train.

I was at a village station that was also a small cargo rail yard. I went looking for the Station Master (who had quickly disappeared) or anyone official. Other than the empty waiting room, the building was closed up tight, ticket windows and bufe were closed. I kept looking and made my way into the offices of the cargo rail company.

There, with my very limited Hungarian (supplemented by plenty of gestures and motions) I told the clerk on duty my story. She confirmed that there were no more trains returning to Budapest that night. So here I am way out in the far southwest of Hungary, almost to Croatia with no ID and 2200 Forints (about $10).

But I knew I had a really big God who has been working on my behalf all day without my knowing it.

I began making phone calls. First to my new friend back on the train to take him up on his offer for a ride back to Budapest. I handed the lady in the office the phone, they spoke and he explained the situation to her. She tells us they would keep the waiting room open for me until he arrived at about 11.

Then I called two colleagues in Bp to ask them to go and get my passport and wallet from the kind man who found it. That way I could have them when we arrived in the wee hours of the morning. Things were getting sorted!

About this time two young people walked onto the office to speak to my new friend (and they spoke English!). After hearing my story, they all began to have a discussion in Hungarian.

Meanwhile I got on the phone with my hotel in Zagreb and the manager agreed to let me come in a day late with no penalty, even though it was an Internet deal!  Another blessing beyond what I could hope! When I hung up they told me I would be coming to their house for dinner and “have  a rest” until my ride arrived. This was the daughter and boyfriend of my new friend, they “just happened to be” in town on a break from working on a cruise ship.

So, now everything was sorted! We went to their house and sat around their table. I showed them pictures from South Africa, I told them stories from my travels and how many times God has sorted things out for me without my knowing it, I told them about being a follower of Jesus.

I heard about their family and how the lady of the house (from the train station) told me how she had been healed of a partial facial paralysis. As we talked I realized how very many pieces had to come together for this puzzle to work.

See, I was not just taken care of, I was incredibly blessed. God was using people I had never met (some of whom I may never meet), to turn a situation that could have been VERY bad indeed, into an event in which we could give Him glory.

As it ended, I lost some cash and a day. But my passport, credit card, atm card, drivers license, keys, everything else were returned.  I have made new friends.

Did all of this “just happen”?

I leave that for you to work out.

For me, this was a case of God causing “all things (even the act of a thief) to work for the good.” Mark me down as thankful.

Oh, and you can be sure that I will not let my guard down again!

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